and still not happy...
(1) i rejected him after 3 dates (reference previous post)....told him that i didnt want to see him anymore, he was rude, no connection for it go further, it is over. no communication or response from him....i dont know what i was expecting, but i guess even though i DID want it be over and actually DO NOT want to see or talk to him again, i still wanted him to write back and say something!
(2) 2 weeks have gone by and no communication from the boy that was "just not that into me, but wanted to use me for female attention"...the annoying part is that the last time we went on a date, i came to this realization that i didnt want to see or talk to him again unless it was something more...that i wasnt gonna allow this "in between" status. I was happy and felt empowered by my realization.
i assumed that he would call or text...so that i could then call him back with my conviction that i could no longer allow this to go on like that, i deserved more,...BUT, he never called.
that is exactly what i wanted, in some ways... for it to all to be over, but....isnt there more?!
in case (1) let that go...why have to confront and have an awkward conversation after no real commitment to the man...done..
in case (2) though...i still just as bad, if not worse, because he apparently came to the same realization last time we saw each other that it should be over. by him never calling, he never gave me the chance to regain my power, self-respect, and dignity by putting my foot down and calling it off.
well, i guess i learned that when it is wrong, every emotion around the wrong feels bad and it is better to just be out of it and feel liberated from the wrong.
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1) even when we don't want them, we want them to want us. I think it is our weakness as women that we want to be wanted (not trying to stereotype or whatever) whether or not it is to our advantage. It feeds into our egos and makes us feel worthwhile. But when it comes to guys like (1), how much of a loss is it for a guy who is OBVIOUSLY below par to not have the decency or respect to write back or respond? You can only assume he doesn't know any better and that anyone who doesn't recognize the good thing you are is not worth your frustration.
ReplyDeleteGood thing you're worth it whether they recognize it or not =)
2) Maybe it wasn't that you wanted it to be over (even though you did). Maybe it was that you wanted to be able to show him that you COULD call it off... and he never gave you that chance. So you didn't really get everything you wanted. I think getting to tell him how you felt would have provided a certain sense of closure that excommunication did not provide.
Don't you love it when my responses are longer than your posts? =P